Burning Ones

WOOOOOOOOO!!!

I’m definitely going to center my post tomorrow around this book. It’s been an incredible read so far. Very challenging and very uplifting. I hope to convey the message of Discourse #1 concisely and easily, but it’s going to take a lot of work. However, despite that, get your hopes up!

So I’m a day late, but that’s ok :-)

I was listening to a teaching on the Onething podcast from Mike Bickle about getting a burning heart (I was upset God at the time and just wanted to zone out with an audio, but God’s very good to me and I know it wasn’t just me, hehe). Anyway, to sum up the message Bickle talked about Ephesians 5:18-19 and proposed/stated singing the Scriptures as the best way to get a burning heart. Now, even in my disobedience, I will always admit that there’s nothing more I want than a total on-fire heart for God where He is my everything and my everything is in Him. So I tried it and I immediately got really tired and this image flashed in my head of a truck-load of these men in black shirts, pants, and sunglasses. I thought it was a little odd because it wasn’t a scene from a movie or anything and I had never seen it before. But I brushed it off because I was falling into that sleep-awake state as I was singing the Scriptures and it was probably some random image my brain produced (which is such a lie). But I realize now that God was trying to warn me that He had brought me into something new and the devil was bringing hell (demons) to my door.

So the passed couple of days have been a hell ride! Ugh, it’s been awful. I really felt God leading me to take Monday night prayer off and just spending the time with him and I feel SOO much better, but I was like uber attacked with all these lies that I’ve totally been buying into. And now that I think about my dreams a few weeks ago were warning me of this, but of course you don’t think of that when you feel like you’re unloved, making no progress, abandoned, and just an annoyance to God. So I spent a good deal of my time ignoring God, crying all day, complaining to Timmy, and staying away from getting Scripture into me because it just got too hard. So I just really got to get more truth into me over and over and over again until it comes out of my ears. And my whole pride issue wasn’t helping this at all.

Yesterday was our first anniversary :-) no, we didn’t do the whole “take the cake out of the freezer” thing because:

1. We’re not really into the whole “traditions”… we’d rather make our own.
2. We’re on a no meats-and-sweets fast.
3. Timmy doesn’t like cake.
4. We didn’t have a cake at our wedding, we had a choclate fondue fountain (which is highly recommendable). But had we had a cake the 1-3 would still apply.

Anyway! We spent the night hanging out (we went to one of our favorite Mexican restaurants) with Tim’s older sister and her new boyfriend, Jesse (who we are VERY excited about and I end up praying for them a lot because my mind tends to get distracted when singing/praying Scripture and then I think of them and how happy I am for Katie and so I’m like “Oh, God! btw!” hehe.

Saturday was Alex and Jaclyn’s wedding!!!!!!! It’s was fantastic and I am SOO happy for them. I am actually surprised at how happy I am for them… I didn’t expect to feel like this. Maybe it’s a small taste of what John the Baptist felt when his “joy was full” when the Christ, who he had spent his life preparing for, came. Let’s hope :-). Jaclyn looked absolutely radiant (as she should- Alex is a great guy to marry). And I LOVE this picture of Alex!I cried a lot… but I also cried a lot because they’re leaving in like a month for Kansas City for like three-four years. They actually don’t know how upset I am about it but that’s ok (I’m not one to really show emotions). They’re in Disney World right now (so I’m also kind of jealous because I’d love to go on a vacation, hehe). The whole day was just a huge array of emotions, but when it’s all said and done I’m super happy for them and hope they’re doing fantastic.

Photos complimentary of Michelle Fitt, who doesn’t really know I stole them :-).

I’m still really excited about the Call. We’ve been listening to Lou Engle’s message a few times a week (which will get you pumped up no matter what). The 40 day fast is going good. I’ve decided I should probably start working out so I’m going to commit to doing that Mondays and Thursdays and I am REALLY sore. I did a Billy Banks Tae Bo video and it just killed me. You’re supposed to be sore the next morning, and I was sore a few hours after the video.. I can’t imagine what my arms are going to be like tomorrow morning.

So YAY! God loves me.

And here’s a picture of us Vishers (left to right: Tim, Me, Christina, Daddy-Don, Katie).