Burning Ones

So I’ve had an o.k. week, but a particularly good weekend, which leaves me with the feeling that the whole week was wonderful.

God has been über good to me this week and has given me some revelations that I definitely should not be getting. One of them has been that God is a god of process and He certainly enjoys the process more than the finished product. So therefore I can find more joy in the race than at the finished line because I am made in the image of God.

I’ve discovered that the goal is not to find out what God wants you to do, but to do everything for God. THAT JUST SOUNDED LIKE A BROTHER LAWRENCE QUOTE! ::pride… rising…::

And, don’t get me wrong, this week wasn’t the best. For some odd reason Tim and I have been fighting at the end of almost every night. This results in either one of the following:

1. We stay up for hours fighting, me crying, and then talking it out together (which Tim really shouldn’t do because he has work or school in the morning).
2. Tim goes to bed and I stay up for a couple of hours into the night watching various episodes of Sex in the City (which I hate), Family Guy (which I hate that I find funny because it’s such an awful show) and Friends. And then I crawl back into bed sobbing, wake up Tim, and tell him I’m sorry.

This week all the fights were 100% my fault and I really don’t have anything else to say.

But the weekend was fantastic. I feel like I’ve been overwhelmed by the fact that I only see Tim (note I said “see” not “spend time with”) three hours a night during the week and I thought the weekend would be the same but we spent all of it together and we had a really good time.

I’ve been listening to a series of sermons called “God is Green” (which can be found here). And I just think it’s stupid and arrogant that if everyone in the world would live like me, we would need FOUR earths to sustain everyone (this is called your ecological footprint and you can find yours here). So with that being said I (and Tim) am making it my goal to live as simply as possible and to reorder my life to take care of my surroundings… even if I merely changed our light-bulbs to florescents or eat a meal without meat… I understand that the whole thing is a gradual process but that still doesn’t keep me from wanting to dive right into it and spend the week picking up trash from the side of the road. A lot of things I can’t do (like turn the backyard into a garden) because we’re still living with my parents. So throwing out all the paper towels and demanding that my mom use cloth for clean-up wouldn’t be very good, even though I think it’d be cool. So I encourage everyone who reads this to go the extra mile to pick up trash in the parking-lot or buy food at your local farmer’s market.

So to those of you who have been praying for me I feel SO much happier with life in general and it’s awesome because I can feel God so much more in my life than ever before. And I find that odd because I really haven’t been fasting or reading my Bible. Maybe God doesn’t care so much about those things as I thought. I could always be wrong though :-)

But thank you!!!!

Love,

Jessie V.

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