I don’t really know how to put into words what I’m thinking. I’m trying to get a good handle on what Christianity is all about without slipping into the hippy/liberalism that it keeps pointing me to. Up until know I was sure that Christianity was all about getting closer to God. You know: you set up morning times, evening times, church times, fast times, reading times, prayer times, with the ultimate goal of knowing God more. But I can’t deny the fact that since I’ve stopped reading my Bible frequently and spent more time with my hands in the earth I’ve felt closer to God.
And I’m kind of confused because this isn’t what I was taught. Since I’ve been reading books by people like Henri Nouwen and Brennan Manning, who teach that life is just about the love (of God), simple spiritual disciplines (that a child could do), and pouring your life into people. That for the most part Jesus spent his time eating and drinking (party-ing) with the people who are into drugs again after their 100th swear that they were clean. I mean, his first miracle was turning water into wine. Why would the son of God come to earth to give drunk people more drink? That was not a very pious move in my opinion.
To be honest I’ve always wanted to live in a commune with tens of other people, making my own clothes, growing my own food, letting strange people who don’t have homes come in my house and eat their full. And my society has always written that off as a hippie movement that already happened. But, I dunno. Maybe that’s how you experience God. Maybe it’s not necessarily doing all these awesome religious works but just living life to the fullest of what it was meant to be.
On a much lighter note we’re leaving for Kansas City next Sunday at 6 AM- YAY! So the next time I blog we’ll be in the mid-west. I’m (and I’m sure Timmy is to) so excited to take a vay-cay.
